I remember saying that I was going to at the minimum post at least one blog post here, every Month, during 2021. As I’m writing this, it’s May 31, and exactly one hour away from June. Pacific time that is. I already failed my goal by Eastern time. Why do I keep giving myself these responsibilities?
I don’t think I’ve been shy about saying that every week, I want to just give up on whowhatwhereswhy.com. To just quit altogether. I’m already spending so much time on it like it’s a part time job. Except I’m not getting paid for my effort at all. Over six years of this, and I’m still waiting for something to happen. Some would probably suggest that the moment has passed and it’s time to give up.
I read social media posts of other people who are saying the same thing about their careers. How they felt like they should just give up chasing their dreams, but they are going to still keep trying, because they still love it. You know the difference between those posts and mine (like this one)? There are actual people reading them! They actually have a fanbase to support them chasing their dreams. While the numbers suggests there are people who are paying attention to what we’re doing here, they sure aren’t acting like a fanbase. It sounds like I’m showing signs of jealousy, and you may not be wrong.
I want to be given a strong reason why I should continue all this, besides some arbitrary goals and achievements that I made up for myself, or how I’m just documenting my thoughts for future references about my life. I’m already telling myself not to give up every single day. Why doesn’t somebody else take a turn and make me not quit?